My first year of college is winding down as I’ve encountered new experiences and of course tons of obstacles. College can be a once in a lifetime experiences as you go through growing pains and significant changes within yourself as a person. I can just say that when this first year ends, I can truly be relieved! My first semester was the beginning of my experience as things went pretty well. However, my second semester has been pretty tough to the point that I had a nervous breakdown. Trying to balancing school out along with other things such as taking care of your grandmother, dealing with grief, and dealing with emotional distress and mental imbalance. These factors have been really a burden on my shoulders to the point where I feel empty. As these things have affected me, my grades have slipped a bit. But with finally talking about what’s going on with me such as talking with family members, therapists, and school counselors, I truly believe that I can still make it our of my first year of college from my determination.
Schoolwork and exams have been really though for me because they’ve been coming left and right for the majority. It gets pretty frustrating because my grandmother needs me every single second of the day. It’s been very tough since my grandfather passed because my grandmother will need me to be with her to the point that I can’t do homework until later. The serious problem is when I don’t have time to cook myself anything to eat where I sometimes like to snack on food. Since I’ve been entirely stressed it’s caused me to gain some weight and my hair to break out. Everyday would be a very depressing day because sometimes I can’t figure out what’s wrong with me. I would try to suck it up and try my best to do my work, but it seems that my energy and confidence would run out. It took me a while to tell everybody about what’s going on with me before things got worse. Frankly, I feel a lot better after I talked about it.
I went to visit my advisor after I told my 2nd semester English teacher what’s going on with me mentally and academically. She made the appointment for me which I appreciated. My mother also made me a doctor’s appointment. Anyway when I visited my advisor I had to tell her how I really feel and how I’m trying to cope with my problems. Everything was hard to get out, but at the end of the day I’m happy that I did speak. My advisor was really supportive and was very encouraging at the same time. Since I have a few weeks remaining in the school year she tried her best to persuade me to not give up and make myself proud, and also my family. She did persuade me and she also told me that I can come by her office if I still feel distressed.
After the talk I had with my advisor, I seriously feel rejuvenated and back to my old self. I’m getting more sleep at night, and I’m trying the best I can to let my grandmother know that I have to attend to my schoolwork. Getting on a healthy diet is helping me to gain my endurance level back. I feel confident that I’m going to make it. Even if everything’s not like they used to be, I just want to take care of myself first! I just try to make a better life for myself and my healthy especially.