It’s the end of the year! I can really look back at this year as it went by super quick. When it came to being exposed to new experiences, obstacles, and victories I’d say everything finished the way it was suppose to thanks to having a great stroke of faith and good composure. I just know 2019 will be a whole new year of the same battles for me, but I will have more growth.
I have really been focusing on resetting myself and having a peace of mind by dedicating myself more to my family and away from everything else. I’m truly taking advantage of this break to rest. Why not try to rest after grinding it out from work and school? By the way I finished with straight A’s. My calculus final was tough as I took me a whole 3 hours to complete as there were a few questions based on topics I didn’t really have a great strength in. I thought I would do decent, but the fact I got an 88% showed how much I have grew and how much I believed in myself! It brings me excitement for the next challenge!
I have so much ahead of me it can feel overwhelming. However, it makes me more comfortable since I have eliminated distractions and people who weren’t really there for me in the beginning. Once you eliminate negative energy you can have a strong outlook and a clear mind for what’s next to come in your journey.
A new year will bring nothing but good vibes either in the good or bad. The more I take everything a day at a time the more content I will be for the hardships that will come along the way. I just have to deal with this hardship right now of having a stomach bug, but I still stand strong!
The end of the semester is already coming as finals week starts this Monday! It’s truly crazy. I’m already done with my Statistics 1 class which went by well for me as I did well on the final. So I have 2 classes remaining. I’m just preparing for the last week. The big cheese that I’m focusing on is my final in my Calculus 1 class which is very important, and has been the most important class all semester to me. At the end of the day I truly hope my grades will reflect that.
I’m very glad this semester is coming to an end where I can enjoy a great, much needed break, but also it was a good learning experience for me where even though I went through hell I was able to brush it off and move on to complete my progress. This semester has prepared me for what’s to come next.
Speaking of what’s coming next I will be strictly focusing on my major next semester as I will be taking 12 credits again. I know all of my classes will be math related, but I know it will be a level up as I move up in my college career. I’ll be taking Calculus 2 which I heard is very tough. Analysis of Variance and Multivariate Analysis is the next class I’ll be taking which consists of statistics mainly. Then Environmental Statistics is the 3rd and final class I’ll be taking. The good thing is however I’ll have the same instructor from my Statistics class who I was very cool with. All in all, next semester will be an ear full, but that’s next semester. I’m just focus on my break!
Other things I’m doing is focusing on is saving for my apartment which I’m planning to move when school lets out for the summer in May. I have been very bold in building up my credit thanks to paying off my credit card on time, taking some money and moving it to a savings account, and looking for places. So I’ve been focusing on acheiving more of my goals.
I don’t necesaarily have anyhting else planned really. Spending time with family is enough for me whether if it’s just talking to them or even having company. I hope everyone enjoys their holiday break.
It’s truly crazy of how much a month went by. Last time I made a blog I talked about the unusual which I felt was something I needed to release. In your darkest times I truly believe that talking about it is the recipe for turning things around. Things have turned around for me which has been a humbling experience.
I even feel humble while typing this blog. My state of mind in all aspects feels stronger as I’m preparing to endure the next levels that are entering in my life. There will be more dark times, but it’s the strength, determination, wisdom, and most importantly the faith that will help overcome those obstacles because it does take a village to keep you going.
On my off time (like I barley have any off time) I like to watch other people accomplish great things for not only them, but for others. Watching these videos have also been a great influence on me to let me know I’m doing the right thing by staying humble in this stage of my life because there are great things that are coming for me.
Nothing big has really happened to me yet, but it’s really about the little things and adjustments that need to happen in order for the bigger things in life to happen so you can have a breakthrough. No matter what it takes you got to stay still and let things fall into place. I really love writing for you all because every time I do I experience something new that I get to share with you all!
Best wishes to everyone!
This blog is going to be a different from you’re used to reading. Usually I would blog about mostly anything about what’s going on with me especially school, but there have been times where I haven’t felt like my usual self which I’m trying to take better care of myself. First things first, it’s nice to be able to blog again after a long and brief summer so each of you can see how things are going or what new experiences I have encountered. Well this new experience I encountered isn’t going to be peaches and cream. As my title says “Keeping it real” I’ll truly tell you what’s been going on with me.
Everything’s been the same as I have the same expectations. Working and going to school while trying to maintain good performance throughout my classes. I’m currently working at the Hy-Vee that recently opened in Robbinsdale, if you want to check it out. Great store! I’m trying to do good things for myself as I’m at the mature age where I’m good with managing my finances and responsibilities which I’m trying to build up my credit to move into an apartment. If I have to wake up at 5am in the morning and work 8 hours to get things done I’m of course willing to do that. Then of course school comes next which I would go to my evening classes after completing my daily tasks. As an everyday task every adult goes through (at least younger adults like myself) what exactly is the problem?
Of course I’m someone, again, who likes to be on top of everything no matter what it is. However, this past weekend gave me an eye opener on how to remind myself that I’m only human as I don’t ALWAYS have to over exert myself, but do the best I can. Lately I have been having migraines which I’ve been stressed out. I would take medicine, eat, and drink my fluids, but nothing seemed to work. I would still kind of brush it off as it was normal and continued on with my life and routines, but this past Saturday night was a night I’ll never forget. On that night I had a stress attack which my body and head was in so much pain I could barley move. All I could do was lay down and try to go to sleep, but the pain was so bad I felt nauseous where I swear I was going to throw up. Thankfully I didn’t. Nothing escalated as I was able to fall asleep instead of taking a trip to the emergency room. I’m alright for now, but this was a clear message that I need to take better care of myself and that we’re not perfect. This was a scary moment for me because it never happened to me before. It’s like you never imagine it happening to you.
I’m thinking about seeing a doctor to see why I’ve been abnormal lately. Of course I would need to do a better job of consuming better foods and liquids. Things are going fine with school. It’s just a matter of finding a balance with everything as I already know the reality of life. Sometimes I don’t really tell anybody, but lately I have brought this to the attention of my family.
I know this blog is a bit late, but I wanted to address something important that has been going on with me instead of writing the ordinary as if I’m pretending like everything’s fine when it isn’t. I feel like if I can tell my family what’s going on I can tell my Concord family too. I encourage everyone, who’s a Concord student, to not be afraid of letting others know of what’s going on with you because life’s a roller coaster. It may not be a big deal to some, but to me writing this blog made me feel better as I feel that I’m going to make it out the semester fine.
I’m offically done with all of my classes and done at Minneapolis Community and Technical College as I graduate on May 14th. After that I will offcially be moving on to Metropolitan State University as the real test begins. I’ll be entering my major in mathematics where I want to be someone who can transform their community. However, this isn’t going to be about what’s going to happen at Metropolitan as that will be in a future blog. This blog is primarily about looking back at the very first day I started at MCTC to now where I have been through a tremendous journey as I feel prepared to take the next step.
Tremendous usually refers in excellence where good only occurs. However, the journey I’ve been through was good and bad considering of how many obstacles I have faced. I honeslty feel stronger now than I felt when I first started. To be honest college has developed me into having a growth mindset which was a factor needed to help prepare me for when I move up in school. The growth mindset helped me humble myself more where I acknowledge that it’s good to make mistakes in order to succeed because there’s no such thing as perfect success. Only broken success.
Based on what was written in my past blogs they were all real life-changing experiences for me during my journey through 3 years at MCTC. All I know is that this won’t be the end of my obstacle written journey because there will be more waiting for me at Metropolitan as well as the rest of my life. It’s just a matter of acknowledging them along with how I will handle them because the main thing when it comes to success is failure where I have been training myself to embrace failure more often when it happens instead of avoiding it.
A lot can happen within a month or so which can affect a person’s life either positively or negatively which has been happening. There have been times where I feel that I’m on a pretty good track, but of course there have been distractions that have been affecting me and my performance a slight bit in school where at the same time I’ve been trying to maintain my work ethic, but it seems that I don’t have the same energy.
There’s a lot of reasons why I don’t have the same amount of energy at the moment to do my studies. A lot has to do with bad family issues where it has affected me since I got to put aside some of my valuable time to attend them such as helping taking care of my nieces and nephews which can be extra for me. There’s more issues that are happening, but it’s too deep for discussion. All I know is that it’s been something that has been ongoing for a few months now. Also the loss of the Grandparents has been an affect on me even if I’m not noticing it. Even though it’s going onto 3 years since I lost both of them it feels like yesterday. I still had to be busy when dealing with my Grandparents, but the difference is that I didn’t really have to worry about anything else other than school. I know I’m still missing them both mentally, but more importantly physically.
I’m still trying to put my best foot forward since it’s the 2nd half of my last semester here at MCTC before I move on where I’m trying to get things set up such as trying to apply for Metro State, apply for more scholarships and find more financial resources, and plenty of more things to do to make sure I’m good to go. I’m even considering of joining Phi Theta Kappa at my school so I can try to receive scholarship opportunities and of course strengthen my opportunities on my college application and resume.
I remember messaging my best friend on messenger where I talked to her about what’s going with me which was good for me instead of always talking to family all the time. She told me how to approach situations differently where I should have a cold mindset which meant not always overwhelm your mind where I should take things one step at a time where I am detaching myself from my emotional temperatures. At the end of the day it was good for me to get my emotions out.
Now that I had the spring break to reset despite me having the flu I believe I can still finish the semester on a good note especially doing a better job of taking some of my work a little more serious instead of taking it for granted such as my mathematics. In my precalculus class I’m doing a decent job, but I want to be better. Partially it’s because I think I have been taking it for granted since math is my strength. It’s always important to remember that things are going to be very challenging even if they happen to be in something you’re really good at.
In 4 months I will be turning 21 years old as I’m in my early years as a woman who has moved on from being a kid. However, there will still be times where I feel like a kid such as living with my parents, taking some classes that I’m comfortable with, taking the bus for transportation, etc. So at this moment I have came to a point where I want to start taking on challenges I need to not only succeed in life, but just make adult moves.
During this week there have been several times where I have broke down in tears because of how tired I am of having it kind of ‘easy’. I placed easy in quotations because of course everything I have been through or have done wasn’t easy. I remember during my senior year of high school and my first semester of college I had to deal with taking care of my grandparents along with trying to maintain a good GPA. Successfully I did as I graduated high school with a 3.76 GPA along with high honors. So I have no regrets. However, now as I begin to move up in my life I want to start making changes to myself where I can start taking good risks in order to better myself as a person who is experiencing adult life. I’m really starting to take life and school more serious. Not to mention my interest and skills in mathematics where I want to start applying myself.
These last 2 months have made me look at school and life a lot more different than before. Going through the things, mentioned in my recent blogs, I am beginning to develop the growth mindset where I’m slowly leaving the fixed mindset. For a long time in my life I’ve been in a fixed mindset where I’m used to doing things that are comfortable for me where the challenges are minimum since I want success. Now I want to live through the growth mindset where I want to take on uncomfortable challenges where I can strive through hard work because I know that I have a great ability to get through obstacles.
There have been things I’ve been doing in making my daily steps of growth. Already I’ve created a resume which has been a good experience for me, preparing myself for my driving test, building up my credit by buying myself a phone along with going on my own plan, creating a SMART goal of getting my own apartment, and already being ready for the spring semester where I’m focusing on graduating. So already I’ve been busy for a while for the better of my future. I’m not the same person I was a week ago or even a couple days ago. I feel stronger everyday.
I know my destination will be tough, but already I’m not afraid of the journey. Just as long as I can think positively and remotely I’ll be fine. I’m just ready to come out of my shell and be a woman who will take advantage of all her strengths instead of being afraid to because of the obstacles that will come along the way that will try to slow me down. I feel everyday I’m overcoming my weaknesses that have held my back in truly striving and growing. In closing, it’s been painful of being comfortable for a while. Now I’m striving through my next steps. In the year 2018 it’s game on!