February Blog Post

I know this blog post is going to be similar to my last blog post from last month, but it’s pretty much this time is about balancing my weekly schedule. So I hope I won’t be repeating myself too much. Lately I’ve been struggling with trying to balance everything such as work, school, and try to get a good night’s sleep along with taking care of other responsibilities as I’m turning into a fully grown adult. There have been days where I felt overwhelmed and sometimes discouraged, but there’s been some days I’ve felt good about myself knowing that I am capable of doing this. I just know right now that this is a growing process for me.

I was able to go in and see my adviser last week as she was able to give me good advice on how to balance my schedule out during the day, and some of the advice she gave me I’m going to take into consideration. Usually when I take the bus to work and school there will be times where I’ll do some of my homework on the bus just to get my day started along with staying focus. It’s better than going on social media sites that would distract my brain since I’m prone to procrastinating, and I do admit I like to pull out a book and read it and puts me in a deeper state of mind of focusing. By the way the book is for a research paper, but reading keeps me engaged when I want to get away from things.

After work I would take out some more homework material and do a little homework on the bus until I get off the bus. When I get home balancing concerns comes into play because when I come home from work I’m usually exhausted as I don’t feel like doing anything. Mostly I’ll just sit, relax, and watch the Minnesota Wild game sometimes. After the games I like to do a little more homework just to get some homework done so I won’t try to feel too overwhelmed the next day. This is what’s happening with me for a few weeks and now I’m on spring break.

I’m really thinking about my second half of my spring break as I want to succeed in this semester. I think it’s really going to come down to sometimes eliminating TV, or eliminating some of social media every now and then to really keep my mind focus at home once I come home from work because that’s where I’m the most vulnerable to procrastinating. It would be nice to stay on campus after my classes are over just to say in my focus mindset to do some homework while I don’t have work. Although, I have a dog to take care of where I have to attend to him which makes things a little more difficult. So I’m trying to be more organized in the second half of my semester by having a planner with me to try to organize my schedule a lot better so I won’t feel so overwhelmed, and I can get things done either ahead of time or on time.

Overall I feel that I’m still doing well in school. I need to do a better job balancing my schedule throughout the week, and even the day as well. I’m just happy that this is the growing process for me while I’m in college as this is normal. I would be happy to receive more advice and tips. 

Experiencing the reality of being a college student

During the holiday break I got my first job. It’s a part-time job where I’m trying to balance out school and work for the first time to the best of my ability. I’ve had previous experience taking care of my grandparents. However, I’m now working at a real industry where balancing work and school is a new learning experience for me as a college student. Not to mention trying to still get good rest from sleeping.

Since I’m working my days feel a lot shorter. There isn’t much time to fit everything that I want to do in one day such as relax for a second. I have responsibilities to attend to such as attending school, working immediately after school, getting homework done, and still try to get rest for the next day. So when do I exactly get to spend time playing with my dog or even take a little rest after having a long day? The answer is not likely.

When I used to take care of my grandparents there were times where I got to rest, and even got to entertain myself. I realized that I’m going through another stage of being a college student and that’s entering adulthood. You have more responsibilities to make sure that every task is done and free time is pretty limited. This is something I’m adjusting to. When you go to work you’re going to be doing your task where you can’t do homework in between or else you’ll get in trouble. When I come home from work I only have a couple of hours to try to get what I need completed because of wanting to get enough sleep. At times it’s pretty stressful, but that’s part of growing up though. I’m not the only one who has to deal with this or have dealt with this.

I’m still experiencing new changes in my life in college and it’s a good learning experience. The more new things that I’m introduced to the more I can prepare to better my college career as I move on a higher level.

Almost there

This blog is specifically about my computer programming class which I talked a little bit about in my last blog. There has been huge bumpy moments in this class. I gotta admit there were some moments where I felt like giving up to be honest because the class is very demanding and puzzling. There were times where I thought about talking to my advisor about possibly paying for the class after it’s done because I felt like I was dumb and stupid. I felt so dumb to the degree where I didn’t want to do anymore work relating to this class and settle for a failing grade where I can pay for it later. There was even a time I emailed Brea talking about my fear of failing, and was also seeking advice that she could give me to at least motivate me in some kind of way.   Let’s just say I felt broken because the work was getting more difficult and I was still clueless. I’ve had breakdowns where I would start crying. These breakdowns would happen because I’m always someone who wants to be on top of their task as an overachiever, but I came to realize that we’re not perfect. However, not being perfect doesn’t mean that we can’t do our best. It’s always good to do your best.

I noticed days were flying by fast as I kept looking at the calendar questioning if I can still complete this course or if it’s too late. Judging from how my grade was during the middle of the semester I knew that wasn’t going finish the class with an A,  but I know that there’s still time to save my grade from what it actually is currently. Sometimes I have had habits of thinking that if I don’t get an A I’m not an achiever which isn’t true at all. I would talk to myself and say if I can at least try to get a C then everything would be good.  So I started putting a lot of things aside just to focus on this class. I decided to not work because of how much crucial time is required outside of this class. I even decided to work with new partners because my previous partner and I weren’t on the same page in terms of getting assignments done in which I informed my professor about.  We both didn’t know much about programming but things were really stressful for me because of how much work I will put into the assignments where I would email him and he would print them off even if we got an underachieving grade. When I left my previous partner I felt like a burden was lifted off of my shoulders. So I decided to go to my school’s Learning Center to get tutoring help from tutors who actually know what they’re doing. Let’s just say there’s 1 tutor in particular who’s really helpful and dedicated to what he does. His name is Sean who’s very intelligent and nice. I’m still attending the Learning Center to get clarification on something that I don’t understand.  Even though I got some help the results still didn’t translate from the help.  On my next test I received a 63% as I felt broken again because on my first test I receive a 64.5%.  I truly felt that hope was all lost.  My mom was aware of my situation in the class. I even let the rest my family know about it. I even let my church pastor know about it. It at least felt good to let some people who are close to me know about my situation on something that’s not right.  

When I let my church pastor know about my situation things all of a sudden felt different. After I met up with him I felt that I could still pull this off.  I promised him that I would show him my grades from my quizzes and tests to see where I’m at and how I’m doing. The next week we had a quiz. I completed it and I was at least hoping that I got a passing grade even though I tried my best. A week later I looked online and I noticed I got a notification from my programming class.  It was about the grade from the quiz I took. At first I was just expecting a passing grade that would at least get me off my feet. When I looked at my grade I was truly shocked and blessed.  I received a 100%  on my quiz that I didn’t feel so strongly about. I jump for joy in my head as I was happy. I showed my mother, my sisters,  and my church pastor who was beyond grateful and happy for me. So that grade sets the bar for the rest of the semester.  A couple days later I did more reading and looking over assignments, and I was still puzzled. But it was a moment where I looked over the problem again and I felt a big spark because things were beginning to make a lot of sense to me. On an assignment I was able to complete the problem on my own as I was impressed and shocked.  I felt so encouraged.

So this semester is coming to an end,  but I know that I’m not out of the woods yet.  There’s an assignment that is due next week,  a quiz and a test,  and even a final exam that’s a two-part during the last week of the semester.  So I’m really taking the time to put in all of my effort into these last couple of weeks. I listened to one of my pastor’s sayings about taking authority, and I know that settling for mediocrity wasn’t motivating me because I know I’m too smart to settle for mediocrity.  So I’ve been aiming high to bring the best out of everything, but not trying to stress myself out too much because I know I always put a lot of pressure on myself. I just take things one step at a time because you can’t breathe tomorrow’s air.  You can only accomplish on what you can do for today. Wish me luck on the remaining couple of weeks because I am trying, but at  the same time I’m blessed that I made it this far.

Goal is getting back on track

It’s my second and final year here at Minneapolis Community and Technical College which means I’ll be graduating this spring and moving on to hopefully a 4-year college. However, judging from how I’ve been doing lately will I be able to graduate? So far I’m struggling a bit in a few of my classes where it has gotten me off track. Either sometimes I get confused because there are so much overwhelming instructions for homework assignments, or the fact that the deadlines are shorter for homework assignments that usually take longer than a couple of weeks. I would sometimes take a break to let my brain breathe and process the information I’ve read about, but sometimes taking too much breaks has often got me off track instead of prioritizing my time.

I’ve been overwhelming myself with a lot of tasks where I forget to look at my class’ schedules for due dates, and one of my classes we had a test this past Monday where I forgot to look at the schedule as things went south. I did try my best to answer the questions at the best of my ability even if I didn’t remember a few concepts. Now since that’s out of the way I can become more constructive and aware of what I have to do to excel in all of my classes as there is plenty of time remaining in the semester to get back on track.

I’m going to talk about my introductory computer programming class because this class is the class I’m struggling in the most early. I’ve been meeting with my instructor where I’ve been asking questions and getting help, but my execution hasn’t been there on my first homework assignment along with my understanding where things could’ve been better. In result, I got a 56% on my first homework assignment along with me getting a 65% on my first quiz. I’ll admit I did feel a little discourage, but at the same time I knew that I’m capable of doing anything I set my mind to. So I shook off this first assignment and quiz. The second homework assignment was a little more complicated than the first one as the assignments will get more complicated as the semester progresses.

While this occurred I asked for more help. My professor is a nice and genuine teacher who will do anything to help me out, but it’s also my job to make sure I execute what my professor has taught me. I found myself going to my professor’s office hours too much as I could sense a little irritation, and in myself as well. So I started to read my textbook that is really benefiting me now and I’m getting better at writing programs, and learning a lot more. On my second quiz I got a 95%. So there are things to still hope for this semester. 

I’ve been trying to prioritize my time better, and my brain is also getting me back into that focused mindset. I can really see that things will get more complicated, but I really need to try better to take care of myself and stop trying to do everything all at once because it’s pretty impossible. No one’s perfect, and it’s fine to make mistakes. There’s nothing with starting with a bit a time, and also taking advantage of the available resources that’s been provided from my classes. All-in-all, I think I’ll be alright.


Trying to make it

My first year of college is winding down as I’ve encountered new experiences and of course tons of obstacles. College can be a once in a lifetime experiences as you go through growing pains and significant changes within yourself as a person. I can just say that when this first year ends, I can truly be relieved! My first semester was the beginning of my experience as things went pretty well. However, my second semester has been pretty tough to the point that I had a nervous breakdown. Trying to balancing school out along with other things such as taking care of your grandmother, dealing with grief,  and dealing with emotional distress and mental imbalance. These factors have been really a burden on my shoulders to the point where I feel empty. As these things have affected me, my grades have slipped a bit. But with finally talking about what’s going on with me such as talking with family members, therapists, and school counselors, I truly believe that I can still make it our of my first year of college from my determination.

Schoolwork and exams have been really though for me because they’ve been coming left and right for the majority. It gets pretty frustrating because my grandmother needs me every single second of the day. It’s been very tough since my grandfather passed because my grandmother will need me to be with her to the point that I can’t do homework until later. The serious problem is when I don’t have time to cook myself anything to eat where I sometimes like to snack on food. Since I’ve been entirely stressed it’s caused me to gain some weight and my hair to break out. Everyday would be a very depressing day because sometimes I can’t figure out what’s wrong with me. I would try to suck it up and try my best to do my work, but it seems that my energy and confidence would run out. It took me a while to tell everybody about what’s going on with me before things got worse. Frankly, I feel a lot better after I talked about it.

I went to visit my advisor after I told my 2nd semester English teacher what’s going on with me mentally and academically. She made the appointment for me which I appreciated. My mother also made me a doctor’s appointment. Anyway when I visited my advisor I had to tell her how I really feel and how I’m trying to cope with my problems. Everything was hard to get out, but at the end of the day I’m happy that I did speak. My advisor was really supportive and was very encouraging at the same time. Since I have a few weeks remaining in the school year she tried her best to persuade me to not give up and make myself proud, and also my family. She did persuade me and she also told me that I can come by her office if I still feel distressed.

After the talk I had with my advisor, I seriously feel rejuvenated and back to my old self. I’m getting more sleep at night, and I’m trying the best I can to let my grandmother know that I have to attend to my schoolwork. Getting on a healthy diet is helping me to gain my endurance level back. I feel confident that I’m going to make it. Even if everything’s not like they used to be, I just want to take care of myself first! I just try to make a better life for myself and my healthy especially.

College life is alright!

I’m in the middle of my 2nd college semester, and already I feel different. Since college is a higher level learning facility than high school I was pretty intimidated about going to college since it was coming by so fast while I was in high school. I gotta say college isn’t as bad as people might think it is. Actually, the experience is going quite well for me. I’m more comfortable navigating through campus and talking to advisors about my problems.

Another thing that’s great to the college life is that you’re basically your “own boss” because you get to choose how many hours of classes they want to take, or what day they would want to take them. In high school there was a lot of demands, but in college you earn the right to freedom but with responsibility. Even if I have all the freedom in the world I still choose to attend class and manage to show up everyday.

Homework and assignments are not generally hard to do if you put your time into it because college is time-consuming even though it’s worth it in the end when it’s time to take an exam. I generally spend more than 6 hours on homework or studying. In my chemistry class I passed my first exam getting a pretty good grade, and I earned it thanks to self-discipline studying and being a quick learner. Not everyone learns at the same speed, but if you take the time and find a studying technique than studying will become useful.

It’s also useful to be in classes with people who are old enough to be your parents because you can learn from them. In my english class there’s this one woman named Terese, Tess for short, and already we are good friends along with some other older adults. She’s also a mother who can also be one in the classroom. When I was sick one day she would tell me to take some Dayquil and tell me to get some rest. Even though I took my own cold medicine and went to sleep it’s good to have a parent figure around.

The college life is also better for me because I can have a balanced and good breakfast this 2nd semester opposed to my 1st semester since I would eat cookies, drink soda, and eat other junk food to start my day. This semester in the morning I make myself a bagel breakfast sandwich with some orange juice which is very nutritious. I’m able to focus a lot better and be energized. Not to mention that I get more sleep this semester too.

My first year of college is finishing pretty fast, and already high school is becoming a distant memory. The adaption had been big and life learning. This experience will prepare me when I get older and start to do work, internships, etc. If you’re a soon to become Class of 2016 graduate worrying about college then don’t stress yourself about college because it’ll be the best experience that you will ever endure. I assure you.

December Blog: 1st College Semester Over!

My first college semester is over where I’ve enjoyed a much needed break. There were some roller coasters during the semester, but at the end of the day I passes all of my courses that I’m ready to face more challenges. I really thought that everything was going to be difficult, and trust me it will be once I get deeper into my college experience. However, nothing’s too hard if you work hard and smart. That’s what I plan to do next semester. To work smarter by seeking more help from available resources because I know the type of courses I’ll be taking will be difficult.

I’ve had a good time this first semester where I got to learn more about myself from doing a lot of assignments. I learned that I can make it in this world if I stay consistent. I would always go the MCTC Library to relax my brain while I do one assignment at a time. It seemed that the more organized and steady work I did the better results I got opposing to doing everything all at once. Taking my finals weren’t really a huge concern because I organized my study sessions where I was able to cover everything to get prepared. More importantly I believed in myself.

I knew I tend to get into habits as I study because hard work isn’t going to be completed in one attempt. It took me several times to actually get what I’m working on that I kept practicing my brain to the point where studying got more easier. It’s definitely not easy, but the more you do the less stressed you’ll be. People say that working alone isn’t always good, but it’s a great benefactor that people should try because there’s more focus so the brain can perform one task for success.

College is basically the best time to learn due to the fact that no one cares if you fail. It doesn’t matter if you take different types of classes. College is the time where it’s good to be different because you never know if you’re going to expect which is a good thing. I also realized that the decisions you make do have a greater impact for the rest of your life. I believe the decisions I made based on my studying did impact my life where I should expect my studying skills to get better.