I’ve started my final year at MCTC, and I’ve been fairly busy. From being into the books along with finding a new job. Things have been stable for the most part. There have been some moments of stress, but they have been overthrown by resiliency. I’m making baby steps towards my career path.

I’ve finally got a new job where I’ll be a math tutor in MCTC’s Learning Center. The weird thing about it is that I haven’t really thought about much of being a tutor as I was thinking about other jobs outside of school. but I could see how tutoring was linked towards my career path of working with children in mathematics as a community worker. I’ll be starting this week as I’m very excited!

I have also been making a push in telling more people about my career interest as I attended the college fair at my school this past week. I went to Metropolitan State’s table where that will be the school I want to attend next fall. I asked about their math program and told them why I want to go into math. Let’s just say they’ve told me I can meet them at any time to talk more about enrolling, etc.

I’m curious of where the math tutoring job will guide me towards to. I’m ready for the challenge to flourish my communication skills so I can take more steps to accomplish my dream. I’m even comfortable as I have a good support system!


May blog

This blog may sound a bit cliche, but getting through all of my obstacles was the best thing that has ever happened to me! I finished my second year at MCTC with two A’s and two C’s which I didn’t believe I was going to get. Dealing with work along with the workload of school made me feel even stronger.

It’s been a tough, but good 2nd year for me. I received more experience, and I have gotten closer with my advisor where I feel I can go to her for anything. Also I love the fact I have good relationships with the teachers I have because I didn’t think my biology teacher would trim his grading a bit to make sure I can still maintain a good grade. That taught me to always stay a good student no matter what because you can be rewarded no matter the circumstance.

Here I am preparing for my 3rd year of college on a good note where I feel at ease knowing that I’ll be alright. I’m still focusing on what I want to do as a career because I actually have a good plan of what I want to do. Of course I’m still going to focus on my studies to see if any new interests come my way.

April blog

Here’s a month where I was finding myself overwhelmed and freaking out. With me being overloaded with big assignments and work hours I thought I didn’t find myself capable of getting through the semester.

My biology class was really the class that had me anxious overall because even though it was an introductory biology class it felt like a principles biology class of some sort. I say this because we would always have an exam every 2 1/2-3 weeks where we would have lectures on 3-5 long chapters per lecture for an exam. It would be frustrating because I have to deal with other various things such as work and of course trying to make sure I do good in my other classes. I didn’t do well on the exams as I wanted too where this made me feel even more worried.

One day when my English teacher said tomorrow will be the last day to withdraw from classes I immediately thought this would be the opportunity for me to try to drop out of biology to avoid getting a bad grade on my transcript. However, before I attempted to do so I went to visit my advisor first to tell her about it. My advisor replied with telling me the effect of withdrawing and of course seeing my instructor first for my reason of withdrawing. When she was telling me all of this I wanted to say “I’m fine with that sacrifice”, but I did realize that financial aid money isn’t something to waste. Then my advisor wanted to go online to check my grades, and to see how my teacher grades. When we saw how my professor grades she says that it’s not so bad since a percentage of 63% or higher is considered passing on a test. Then when we went to my calculated grade so far I was at 71% which is passing. When she saw that she told me not to withdraw along with me knowing that I was over dramatic.

The next day I went to my biology professor’s office hour to talk to him about my situation. He understood and told me what I was going through was completely normal. He told me not to discourage myself because I’m one of his best students, and that grades don’t determine that. He also told me that he trimmed his grading a bit because he would see some students not getting the grade they would want but also putting the work into it. I felt a lot better about passing my biology class. So he told me if I had any questions, when I have the actual time, then I can come in. After that I felt great.

This is a lesson for me when I get over dramatic. I should perhaps think more than doing or assuming.

March blog

In my English class we were doing workshops for our research essays. The workshops were led by a facilitator who was in charge of making sure the class was quiet while the reader was reading their essay, and of course leading feedback discussions. Then there was a reader who was in charge of reading their essay to the class. There were 2 readers actually on most days to make things go faster. My teacher didn’t participate. It was up to us.

These workshops have helped me see research differently and has helped me think about my own essay as well. After listening to future considerations by my teacher it really helped me see how I can make my essay better. We even got to type critical responses for each other’s essay as well in terms of giving feedback by answering the questions given to us. Looking at what my classmates wrote for me was helpful.

I didn’t think we were going to have the kind of workshops we had, but I’m happy that we did because it made writing my essay a lot more easier. Also these workshops have improved my peer editing skills which were kind of a problem in the beginning because I don’t like to interact much with other students about essays. I would rather have my teacher grade my paper and be done.

Sorry that this blog was pretty short, but I did want to share about the highlight we were doing in my English class. These workshops has helped me give constructive feedback on my peers’ essays. This is a good preparation for my math major if I’d have to write an argumentative research essay.

February Blog Post

I know this blog post is going to be similar to my last blog post from last month, but it’s pretty much this time is about balancing my weekly schedule. So I hope I won’t be repeating myself too much. Lately I’ve been struggling with trying to balance everything such as work, school, and try to get a good night’s sleep along with taking care of other responsibilities as I’m turning into a fully grown adult. There have been days where I felt overwhelmed and sometimes discouraged, but there’s been some days I’ve felt good about myself knowing that I am capable of doing this. I just know right now that this is a growing process for me.

I was able to go in and see my adviser last week as she was able to give me good advice on how to balance my schedule out during the day, and some of the advice she gave me I’m going to take into consideration. Usually when I take the bus to work and school there will be times where I’ll do some of my homework on the bus just to get my day started along with staying focus. It’s better than going on social media sites that would distract my brain since I’m prone to procrastinating, and I do admit I like to pull out a book and read it and puts me in a deeper state of mind of focusing. By the way the book is for a research paper, but reading keeps me engaged when I want to get away from things.

After work I would take out some more homework material and do a little homework on the bus until I get off the bus. When I get home balancing concerns comes into play because when I come home from work I’m usually exhausted as I don’t feel like doing anything. Mostly I’ll just sit, relax, and watch the Minnesota Wild game sometimes. After the games I like to do a little more homework just to get some homework done so I won’t try to feel too overwhelmed the next day. This is what’s happening with me for a few weeks and now I’m on spring break.

I’m really thinking about my second half of my spring break as I want to succeed in this semester. I think it’s really going to come down to sometimes eliminating TV, or eliminating some of social media every now and then to really keep my mind focus at home once I come home from work because that’s where I’m the most vulnerable to procrastinating. It would be nice to stay on campus after my classes are over just to say in my focus mindset to do some homework while I don’t have work. Although, I have a dog to take care of where I have to attend to him which makes things a little more difficult. So I’m trying to be more organized in the second half of my semester by having a planner with me to try to organize my schedule a lot better so I won’t feel so overwhelmed, and I can get things done either ahead of time or on time.

Overall I feel that I’m still doing well in school. I need to do a better job balancing my schedule throughout the week, and even the day as well. I’m just happy that this is the growing process for me while I’m in college as this is normal. I would be happy to receive more advice and tips. 

Experiencing the reality of being a college student

During the holiday break I got my first job. It’s a part-time job where I’m trying to balance out school and work for the first time to the best of my ability. I’ve had previous experience taking care of my grandparents. However, I’m now working at a real industry where balancing work and school is a new learning experience for me as a college student. Not to mention trying to still get good rest from sleeping.

Since I’m working my days feel a lot shorter. There isn’t much time to fit everything that I want to do in one day such as relax for a second. I have responsibilities to attend to such as attending school, working immediately after school, getting homework done, and still try to get rest for the next day. So when do I exactly get to spend time playing with my dog or even take a little rest after having a long day? The answer is not likely.

When I used to take care of my grandparents there were times where I got to rest, and even got to entertain myself. I realized that I’m going through another stage of being a college student and that’s entering adulthood. You have more responsibilities to make sure that every task is done and free time is pretty limited. This is something I’m adjusting to. When you go to work you’re going to be doing your task where you can’t do homework in between or else you’ll get in trouble. When I come home from work I only have a couple of hours to try to get what I need completed because of wanting to get enough sleep. At times it’s pretty stressful, but that’s part of growing up though. I’m not the only one who has to deal with this or have dealt with this.

I’m still experiencing new changes in my life in college and it’s a good learning experience. The more new things that I’m introduced to the more I can prepare to better my college career as I move on a higher level.

Almost there

This blog is specifically about my computer programming class which I talked a little bit about in my last blog. There has been huge bumpy moments in this class. I gotta admit there were some moments where I felt like giving up to be honest because the class is very demanding and puzzling. There were times where I thought about talking to my advisor about possibly paying for the class after it’s done because I felt like I was dumb and stupid. I felt so dumb to the degree where I didn’t want to do anymore work relating to this class and settle for a failing grade where I can pay for it later. There was even a time I emailed Brea talking about my fear of failing, and was also seeking advice that she could give me to at least motivate me in some kind of way.   Let’s just say I felt broken because the work was getting more difficult and I was still clueless. I’ve had breakdowns where I would start crying. These breakdowns would happen because I’m always someone who wants to be on top of their task as an overachiever, but I came to realize that we’re not perfect. However, not being perfect doesn’t mean that we can’t do our best. It’s always good to do your best.

I noticed days were flying by fast as I kept looking at the calendar questioning if I can still complete this course or if it’s too late. Judging from how my grade was during the middle of the semester I knew that wasn’t going finish the class with an A,  but I know that there’s still time to save my grade from what it actually is currently. Sometimes I have had habits of thinking that if I don’t get an A I’m not an achiever which isn’t true at all. I would talk to myself and say if I can at least try to get a C then everything would be good.  So I started putting a lot of things aside just to focus on this class. I decided to not work because of how much crucial time is required outside of this class. I even decided to work with new partners because my previous partner and I weren’t on the same page in terms of getting assignments done in which I informed my professor about.  We both didn’t know much about programming but things were really stressful for me because of how much work I will put into the assignments where I would email him and he would print them off even if we got an underachieving grade. When I left my previous partner I felt like a burden was lifted off of my shoulders. So I decided to go to my school’s Learning Center to get tutoring help from tutors who actually know what they’re doing. Let’s just say there’s 1 tutor in particular who’s really helpful and dedicated to what he does. His name is Sean who’s very intelligent and nice. I’m still attending the Learning Center to get clarification on something that I don’t understand.  Even though I got some help the results still didn’t translate from the help.  On my next test I received a 63% as I felt broken again because on my first test I receive a 64.5%.  I truly felt that hope was all lost.  My mom was aware of my situation in the class. I even let the rest my family know about it. I even let my church pastor know about it. It at least felt good to let some people who are close to me know about my situation on something that’s not right.  

When I let my church pastor know about my situation things all of a sudden felt different. After I met up with him I felt that I could still pull this off.  I promised him that I would show him my grades from my quizzes and tests to see where I’m at and how I’m doing. The next week we had a quiz. I completed it and I was at least hoping that I got a passing grade even though I tried my best. A week later I looked online and I noticed I got a notification from my programming class.  It was about the grade from the quiz I took. At first I was just expecting a passing grade that would at least get me off my feet. When I looked at my grade I was truly shocked and blessed.  I received a 100%  on my quiz that I didn’t feel so strongly about. I jump for joy in my head as I was happy. I showed my mother, my sisters,  and my church pastor who was beyond grateful and happy for me. So that grade sets the bar for the rest of the semester.  A couple days later I did more reading and looking over assignments, and I was still puzzled. But it was a moment where I looked over the problem again and I felt a big spark because things were beginning to make a lot of sense to me. On an assignment I was able to complete the problem on my own as I was impressed and shocked.  I felt so encouraged.

So this semester is coming to an end,  but I know that I’m not out of the woods yet.  There’s an assignment that is due next week,  a quiz and a test,  and even a final exam that’s a two-part during the last week of the semester.  So I’m really taking the time to put in all of my effort into these last couple of weeks. I listened to one of my pastor’s sayings about taking authority, and I know that settling for mediocrity wasn’t motivating me because I know I’m too smart to settle for mediocrity.  So I’ve been aiming high to bring the best out of everything, but not trying to stress myself out too much because I know I always put a lot of pressure on myself. I just take things one step at a time because you can’t breathe tomorrow’s air.  You can only accomplish on what you can do for today. Wish me luck on the remaining couple of weeks because I am trying, but at  the same time I’m blessed that I made it this far.